It's odd. It seems like every late-winter for the past three or four years, I've found myself in spiritual darkness: depressed, struggling to hope, struggling to trust, susceptable to the curl-up-in-your-room-and-don't-come-out coping strategies. Sometimes it's because of personal struggles, sometimes because of things happening around me . . . but it always comes to a fore during Lent. I keep the Season, so to speak, but never in a very distinctive way, so I'm wondering why Satan seems to enjoy knocking little-old-foot-soldier-me out of commission anyway. Darnit, I really don't see myself as that much of a threat, especially these days.
Is it just 'cause he's bitter?
Anyway - while curled up on my bed the other day, crying my eyes out, I lit upon this verse, which I had never read before and which I proceeded to write large upon my forearm and memorise:
Rejoice not over me, o mine enemy,
When I fall, I shall rise;
Though I sit in darkness,
The LORD will be a Light to me. Micah 7:8
A goodly life-verse for those of us prone to darker melancholies. Late-winter will wane. Spring IS coming, and with it . . . RESURRECTION!!!
If I were there, I would draw you a happy picture.
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Just read this. Here is a verse that cheers me as well:
ReplyDelete"My flesh and my heart faileth, but God is my strength and my portion forever" (Ps. 73:26).
I have my melancholies too, though I gather that yours are deeper. I want to tell you, Maggie, that you are indeed a threat to the devil. You are a child of God, and you never know what kind of a champion He intends to shape you into, or by what means.
On a much more prosaic level, it's possible that you are vitamin D deficient. A lot of people with SAD have that.
What the heck? This is Sarah Pride. How am I logged in as someone from my caregroup?
ReplyDeleteThere we go...
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